The first time I saw and met you, I was sure that you are the one. But was it my heart without sense or with sense? I get beaten down, worn out, and defeated at least once a day just for you. That’s ok. Being lost is a fine place to be. I just want us both to be allowed free, for me to be in love with you and you crazy in love with me. I don’t believe in finish lines because “Us” – we have a never-ending story. But it seems, we haven’t started yet. They say that I might misuse you, They say you and your essence are addictive which might lead to distractions. They are scared of our togetherness and, They don’t realize how precious you are. I never wished for diamond rings because I wanted you to be my ring just like my shield. The only Ring I wanted to wear was you.
Well well well, what do you think which Ring do we deserve? A wedding Ring? But what about Life before the wedding?
Are you sure that life is amazing with your soulmate, friends, family, and most importantly with yourself?
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t feel as if I’m going through something intense currently. I feel thunder ripple through my bones and I taste lightning on my tongue. There is no storm, but I look toward the horizon and wonder what’s headed my way. I channel a lot of emotions into my head, especially when I am not able to put them into words.
How wonderful it would be If you have someone in your life that takes a towel and wipes away the fog of life from your eyes, that is a very rare good thing. That’s why the missing starts long before they have gone. Some people bring clarity.
Do you know what I am exactly missing? Any guesses?
And it’s ok if you have no clarity.
I am not expecting anyone to understand me as well because all of us are caught in Human pieces of stuff.
Sometimes these emotions just fail to understand human kinds of stuff and forget that each one of us is going through something.
Ask me what I did right yesterday and I will mumble around for a few minutes without really saying anything.
Ask me what I did wrong yesterday and I will deliver a thirty-minute speech detailing everything that I messed up with a precise description. Oh come on, I am made of human stuff and that is complicated.
Ask me… No, ask “Are you happy or Are you lost?”.
Maybe the person won’t be ready to open up but at least he/she might feel good. After all, we all understand Human stuffs.
Now, let’s stay away from others.
Let’s focus on the ring which I desperately want and all of us deserve to have.
Remember this Ring is crafted with love, understanding, self-control, curiosity, pain, purpose, self-respect, and lessons.
It is called the Ring from Freedom – Freedom of the mind which is earned and not achieved easily.
As you got the “clarity” (which we usually don’t have in and for us) that the ring which we all deserve is the Freedom of the mind.
What does Freedom really mean?
What does it look, sound, and feel like?
Are you thinking about moving away from everyone, responsibilities, and just running off?
Not at all. There are people in our lives that are true lights, few hurt, teach or help. That’s an amazing gift.
Life isn’t meant to be lived completely on our own but definitely being a support system of our own and you really can’t trust people around when it’s about your life. Being alone, walking alone might feel easier at times. I get it. That’s how it works for me as well. But you don’t learn alone, you just realize.
One minute I want to build a cabin in the middle of nowhere and talk to no one, and the next minute I am missing the people I love and care about. It’s about balance.
So what is Ring from Freedom of the mind? Perhaps it is a willingness to listen to your heart and help your mind not get lost in useless thoughts.
How about not controlling your mind so much and just setting it free?
Your mind gets the freedom to think whatever it wants – positive, negative, bullshits…allow your mind to think.
Don’t control your mind so much that it goes into the denial zone.
Why is the earth irregularly shaped ellipsoid?
Why I don’t have a plan?
Why do I overthink?
Why do I care so much?
Do I want to be angry?
Do I want to be that person?
Couldn’t I be better?
Why did this happen to me?
What is happening out there in space?
Just STOP. Allow your mind to feel what it wants to feel and think what it wishes to. Just let your mind get the freedom.
You will realize how careless our mind is after all it doesn’t have the heart. It is carefree and emotionless. It just thinks and forgets. It’s that simple until your heart comes into the picture.
Your little heart gives the emotions to your thoughts and that’s when the “mess” word was discovered I guess. Never mind.
If you think you have a caring heart then show some care to your mind by giving it a ring filled with freedom. Don’t allow your heart to play with your thoughts so much that your mind ends up getting hurt. It truly needs freedom.
Freedom of the mind is the ring we deserve.